TAKE ME BACK

I don't love you like I used to
When nothing came between my God and me
And somehow it seems I've lessened my dependence
And wonder why it's not the way it used to be

But I'm ready to learn how to faithfully love you
With my heart, my soul, and my mind
Take me back
To the time I fell in love.


I don't serve you like I used to
'cause I'm too busy serving me
And I don't spend the time with you I need to
And wonder why my soul cannot find peace

But I'm ready to learn how to faithfully serve you
With my hands, my life, and my time
Take me back
To the time I fell in love

I don't love you like I used to
When nothing came between my God and me

But I'm ready to learn how to faithfully love you
With my heart, my soul, and my mind

Take me back to
The time I fell in love

LAY IT DOWN

I've been looking till my eyes are tired of looking

Listening till my ears are numb from listening

Praying till my knees are sore from kneeling on the bedroom floor

I know that you know that my heart is aching

I'm running out of tears and my will is breaking

I don't think that I can carry the burden of it any more

All of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans,

Are slowly slipping through my folded hands



So I'm going to lay it down

I'm going to learn to trust You now

What else can I do

Everything I am depends on You

And if the sun don't come back up

I know Your love would be enough

I'm going to let it be, I'm going to let it go,

I'm going to lay it down.



I've been walking through this world like I'm barely living

Buried in the doubt of this hole I've been digging

But You're pulling me out

I'm finally breathing in the open air

Oh, This room may be dark but I'm finally seeing

There's a new ray of hope, and now I'm believing

That the past is past, and the future's beginning to look brighter now

Oh, cause all of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans

Are safe and secure when I place them in Your hands



So I'm going to lay it down

I'm going to learn to trust You now

Oh what more can I do,

Everything I am depends on You

And if the sun don't come back up

You know Your love will be enough

I've got to let it be, I've got to let it go,

I've got to lay it down

I WILL BE HERE!

I will wait for you

WHY NOT TODAY

Remember

Remember that your presence is a present to the world.

Remember that you are a unique and unrepeatable creation.

* Remember that your life can be what you want it to be.

* Remember to count your blessings, not your troubles.

Remember that you'll make it through whatever comes along.

Remember that most of the answers you need are within you.

Remember those dreams waiting to be realized.

Remember that decisions are too important to leave to chance.

Remember to always reach for the best that is within you.

Remember that nothing wastes more energy than worry.

Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

* Remember that the longer you carry a grudge, the heavier it gets.

Remember not to take things too seriously.

* Remember to laugh.

Remember that a little love goes a long way.

Remember that a lot goes forever.

Remember that happiness is more often found in giving than getting.

* Remember that life's treasures are people, not things.

* Remember that miracles still happen.

A letter to my Mom

Mommy-
It seems so weird to say mommy, after all God felt the need to take you to make me who I am today. It's been almost 11 years since your death. I think about you everyday. At first it was I forgot your voice and then it was I forgot the way your hands looked then it was the little laugh lines you had where the placement was and if they look like mine now. I hope you are proud of me mommy. I have tried the best I know how in life and it was not easy but I knew that God was (is) watching me and protecting me in those moments of loneness. I am so lucky to have known such a fun and lovable person in such a short time (2years).

I thought about you a lot wondering how life was going to be for me and you. I wanted to make daddy and you very proud of me always. I am who I am today because of you. The day I graduated I stopped to be angry at you for leaving and realized that you were shaping me to be who I am today. I felt so alone with my siblings. Few of the family members were there to cheer us but in the stands was my friends whom where as close as a family I had. I miss you everyday and try not to think of you on the days I need you the most but its only to get me by on those days. I love you and miss you everyday I am grateful to have known you.

Ayanda Monyela (Letter to my mom Julia)